Been M.I.A……

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Sorry for the lack of posts lately. Things have been a little bit on top of me lately.

Emotionally I’m spent. There have been some issues personally that I have been dealing with and I am getting there, slowly but surely. These have been taking their toll on my health and that has been down in the dumps as well.
At the same time, my physical health has also hit a bump in the road as well. I have started to gain back the weight that I lost and this has had me upset at both myself and my body but after today, I am back in the game.
I had an appointment with Dave (the dude who I’ve been seeing as part of my Splash Membership…….he’s one of the best PT’s in the country!), today and I have progressed and he made me feel much better today so I’m going to hit back at naysayers and I am going to start making time for it. I haven’t really done this week but I feel so tired and just bleugh! if I don’t go so I want to get back to it. I was doing so well then this week just went “no!”
I have also decided on a new venture which I want to try so I will post about that later but since I need to get in touch with them first to make a slight change but we shall get there.

Anyway, just thought I’d update you all since I have some free time (daughters napping and so is my partner….), so “HI EVERYBODY!”

 

 

8 Weeks down, 8 to go..

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Well, we are officially half way through training!!!!!

As I have said previously on this blog,  I’ve signed up again.., I have entered the Cancer Council’s ‘Women’s 5km Walk/Run 2018′ event this year. I did it last year and I loved it so much that I thought I would do it again.

I have used this event as the goal I needed to get fit and in shape and today marks half way through that goal.

Well, I can say officially that while I haven’t lost that much weight, I have lost a remarkable amount of Cm’s which I didn’t think was possible.

My last post (On my way….) was 5 weeks into it and I had lost 3.4kg and lost 24.9cm off my entire body… And today…..

  This week 8 weeks total
Weight Same as last week (84.3kg) -3.5kg
Bust +2cm -2.5cm
Waist -3cm -12cm
Hips -3cm -7cm
Thighs -2.5cm -5.8cm
Arms -.5cm -1.3cm

So, total wise for half way/8 weeks is I have lost 3.5kg and 28.6cm TOTAL OFF MY BODY!

That makes me so happy and just proves to me that I am heading in the right direction. The weight loss kind of goes up and down but I expect that but the other thing is is my attitude has changed. Because I write my results down each week, it’s keeping me accountable. I love seeing the results and seeing it going down like that is amazing to me.
I also have developed a love for the gym. I honestly have done. I hate not going and get really crabby and out of sorts if I don’t go. I have set myself this ideal situation where if I can get there every second day I’ll be laughing….. getting there is an issue but when I do go I notice that I am a much more patient person, happier and less cranky which I think is great for the people around me.

So, more gym for me and more training needed. I am serious about getting better and doing better at the race so need to step up my training I think 🙂 Wish me luck.

If you would like to donate, here is my page…. Lil’s Race

 

On my way….

Well, I did my weekly weigh in this morning and man, am I stoked! It may only be a small but I feel so proud.
I lost 1.2kg and 3.8cm off my body this week! I was hoping for this kind of loss this week so I’m so glad that we are going in the right direction…
But, what really got me was when I did a month overview (technically it was 5 weeks but close enough I think….), and it showed that over that 5 week period starting 20th May this year, I have lost 3.4kg and….wait for it…..24.9cm off my body!
I don’t know where from so I think from now on I may need to do progress shots but I’m so proud of myself. That is the kind of numbers that I want to see happening and seeing them, shows me that what I’m doing is the right thing.

Now, to get my a** to the gym and really work it out and keep doing my health eating (Thank you Healthy Mummy!!!!)

That’s made my day…… xoxo

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(If you want to check out Healthy Mummy, here’s the link you can click to see it…https://secure.healthymummy.com/shop/?lbwref=1900)

Getting organized…

Today I have decided that I need to make a timetable of my days for a two week period.

The reason being is that I have been to the gym ONCE this week on my own and when I asked my partner this morning if he could watch our daughter while I went he said that there wasn’t enough time between me going/coming home from the gym, HIM HAVING A NAP, and then him heading off to work. This infuriated me as I have been planning on going to the gym today and so to not go is annoying as anything.
So, I have found a timetable which I loved (Timetable Design here) and roughly worked out what my days consisted of and how I could work around it. So, I did one in pencil, then printed out another one and did it in texta and put certain colors for certain activities. I have even labeled the colors off to the sides so we can see what activity is when.

Now, I feel more organized and since I have had a phone saying that my daughters swimming tomorrow has been cancelled, guess what I’ll be doing???? I can’t wait to be more organized.

Wish me luck….

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My completed 2 week timetable. Even sleep has been thought of…..

First session completed..

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Well, I’m excited! My first ever personal training session is done and dusted.
Today it was only half hour and that was just showing me the correct way to do the exercises and the weights and heights of stuff and so on but I loved it all the same.

Basically, earlier this week (Tuesday) I went in and saw a lady who spoke to me about what would happen. We talked about all my issues (a lot of them…) and how we could work through them without injuring me further.
We spoke about my job and how my physical being wasn’t keeping up with the expectations I have of it and how it’s affecting my job majorly.
We talked about my miscarriage and how it may have affected my body and my mental health.
We spoke about roughly what would happen this week between her and the trainer in regards to working out a program specially designed for me. Which I like the idea of because when I look into a gym, I have no idea about what to do and where to start so this was nice to hear.

Then today I went in and the dude was great. He looked at my file and said that I have ‘a lot of issues’ (which is true when I sat down and thought about it…..), so we have a lot of work to do. But, he walked me through and helped work out the exercises so that I could do them and I have a rough understanding of how they work and what order to do them in and how to do them properly.
And honestly, I loved it. I want to do this. For me. For my health. For my mental health. Just for me.
I did get a bit stumped when he said that for this to really work and get results that I would need to come at least 3 times a week which I was thinking “How can I do that?” but then I got to the car and I thought, I’ll make it work. I’ll have to schedule time to do it in but I am confident in getting it done. I honestly want this to help me. And now, having someone guide me in the right direction feels better. I feel more confident now then just going in there and being like “Where do I start?”

I like where this is going and I cannot wait to move forward on this journey…. and tell you guys all about the process while I’m on it….

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Me repping #TeamHealthyMummy on my first ever gym session. Nervous face but excited at the same time.

Just a reminder…

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Just natures way of reminding me to be a beautiful star

Concentrate on me…

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I’ve made a decision.

I’m going to take some time and concentrate on me.

I’ve decided that physically I need to fix myself.
So last Thursday I joined a gym. No big deal to some but to me, it was something that I really needed to think about. I’ve joined a gym before but that was because my friend went there and so I thought I would too. It wasn’t for me though.
This time it it.
I returned to work a couple of weeks ago and while I may only work 3 days a week, there really are quite challenging. I stack shelves at a supermarket and it is quite physically demanding and I’ve found that since returning, my body just isn’t the same. I can only lift lighter objects and pulling and twisting is just too painful at the moment.
So, I have some goals that I want to achieve (as I have talked about in Getting my fitness ideas on.. ).
I’m not just gym-ing either. I’m back onto my Healthy Mummy shakes as well. Healthy eating and drinking better (more water, less fizzy/cordial) and making better overall choices.

With these physical changes, I’ve found that I need to work on me mental health as well. It has taken a battering these last few months so I want to concentrate on getting that back on track as well.
One starting point is that I have enrolled my daughter into childcare one day a week so that she can work on her social and language development and I get some ‘me’ time This has been a cause for debate between my partner and I. Personally, I believe that she will benefit from it greatly. As for me, it will be my time to do me. Do the things I want/ need to do. Housework, go out and get my eyebrows done etc.
Last week, I took the time to go to the Tasmanian Arboretum and I loved it. I was able to focus on my photography (a hobby of mine since before I got with my partner), and I felt so much better afterwards. I felt so much more relaxed, more so then I have for a long time.
I’ve also decided that to turn off all my electronics for most of the day as I found that when I was using them and being distracted by my daughter, for example, I was getting angry, and that was something that I didn’t want.
So, I’m making more ‘down time’ where electronics are off/left alone and I do something else, like I go outside for an hour or so, write a blog post with pen and paper. Just something else.

It’s also best for my daughter as well.
Because that’s what she deserves.
Me.
The best of me.

So that’s the plan.

Hopefully, all goes well, things will start looking up. For me. For my daughter. For everyone

 

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The last rose on our rose bush in the backyard.

 

I just want to feel…

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Me, the night after my D&C (Dilation and Curettage), looking very tired. And I was.

I just want to feel normal again. If that’s even possible.

I want to not have my heart sink when I hear someone saw “Ultrasound…”
Happened at work last night. I walked out of the toilets to go to start work and someone was talking and the only word I heard was that. My heart sank, I could feel the emotion build up….not a great start to my shift.

I want to be able to talk to people about my pregnancy, but wait, I’m not pregnant anymore.
Someone asked me last night how the bubba in my tummy was going and I said, quite sadly, that I wasn’t pregnant and that I’d had surgery to remove it.

So, when can this sadness go? When can I feel normal again?

I’m taking it one day at a time, but there are times where I just want to hide in my bed and cry. But that’s OK, because it’s part of the process.

Maybe one day I’ll get there. Just not right now…..

Enjoying nature..

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Out for a walk at the Tasmanian Arboretum

Today, I took advantage of some child free time and went on an excursion to the Tasmanian Arboretum. I’ve been a couple of times with family and I love it.

I was only there for about an hour but it was nice to get away from everything. All the stress of life at the moment and just walk, photograph, and more walking. I’d forgotten how much I love to do photography around the place. It was nice and relaxing. Being in nature, doing something I enjoy, made me realize that I need to take a step back, relax, allow my body to heal and take some time to smell the roses. Do what I enjoy everyday and not let trivial things get me down.

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My favorite image from my photography expedition today. Taken at the Tasmanian Arboretum.

10 years..

Ten years paper confetti sign.

Last Friday I celebrated 10 years working at my workplace.

10 years! I can’t believe that!

I started there when I was 20 years old. I had a boyfriend who broke up with me not long after I started. When I started the whole shop was different. Different layout. Things in different aisles. Different people. I met my partner at work. We worked the same shifts doing the same thing. We’ve been together for nearly 5 years. We have a 2 year old together.

I have seen managers change around so much but one thing has remained the same…

I am a shelf stacker through and through.

I’ve done checkout. I don’t enjoy that at all. Not my thing.
Some people like it. Me, nah.
I like to physically see what I’m doing and am results driven. I know what I’m good at and what I’m not good at. I know what I can and can’t do.

Honestly, I have my job to thank for who I am today. For the life that I have. For my partner. For my daughter.

So, 10 years have come and gone. Wow, even saying it out loud is weird.

Thank you.

Bit of a loss this week..

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Photo that my mum took of me at Turner’s Beach, the day before she left for Bali.

Well, this is kind of the news that I wanted to see first thing this morning.

As you know, I have made it my mission to lose weight and get generally healthier and fitter following my miscarriage and D&C. So, I have decided to take advantage of the fact that I have signed up for the Healthy Mummy challenge (You can sign up here). I’ve taken advantage of the challenge app and find that the weekly weigh in’s make it more of a challenge to beat my last weeks progress.

This week I have had a loss of 13.1cm off of my body with a weight loss of 200g which to me is awesome as I didn’t really have a great week food wise (celebrated 10 years at work and so we had pizza and junk food and that’s my weakness). I’m proud of the start that I’ve had so we shall see how these current weeks go.

Just wanted to share my achievements this week 😀

*I have started a weight loss page where I post my measurements and weight for that week. You can find it here *

Trying a new product I found online..

I received a package today.

It was from EkoWorx. I had seen the ads pop up on Facebook from time to time and I had wondered if it would really work.

It wasn’t until someone else I knew tried it out and posted about it that I thought I would buy it. After all, what’s one more cleaning product right?

Well, I have tried it out and I can honestly say, I won’t be buying any other cleaning product for around the home anymore. I have already cleaned the oven door, some cupboard doors, bit of the range-hood and I even cleaned some green crayon off of our white walls that has been there for at least a week. Man, do I feel impressed. I don’t feel like I have to wear a gas mask when I use it and it’s a pretty straightforward product in terms of usage. I don’t feel like I’m about to wreck my clothes using it either. Which is great.

I will be tackling the bathroom next with it (possibly tomorrow, depends) and we shall see how that goes. I wasn’t very impressed as on Monday I decided to clean the soap scum off the shower doors (with a product specifically made for bathrooms, and yes, I did have a brain freeze as most have a bleach kind of product in it and yes, it did stink my house out), and not thinking straight, didn’t change out of my work pants (I was wearing them already and didn’t think to change) and so low and behold, the product I used bleached my pants and so I had to throw them out and buy new ones (I hate buying clothes).
Ekoworx doesn’t have me feeling like I’m going to wreck my clothes but I suppose, better to be safe then sorry, tomorrow, or whenever I get round to it, I will change into my trackies and tackle the bathroom next.

Here are some of my pictures from today’s goings on….

The two on the left are from before Ekoworx and the two on the right are after I had a go at using it. Must say, I’m sold. Thank you 😀