Monthly Archives: June 2013


Howdy there everyone,

I am addicted to coffee! There, I said it! I drink one in the morning and then quite a few throughout the day. At work it’s probably 3-4 so that makes me feel horrible even now just thinking about it. So, I have made the decision now that I am going to give it up. Accountability. That’s the aim here. By saying it here in public forum, I am making myself accountable.

Mostly this all stems from my underlying feeling of wanting to be healthy. I have started to go for walks and incorporate runs (a whole other blog) and I think that giving up coffee is going to be a huge step. I am going to write it everywhere so that everyone can see, even on the fridge.

I have been reading this site energyfriend and their post on Caffeine Withdrawal Symptoms: Top Ten and I have to say, I am terrified. Reading some of the comments about the symptoms and what people have gone through is making it sound like a very scary experiment but I know that for my own peace of mind, I have to do this. I just have to. I know it will be hard and I am hoping that I can write about my experience on here and hope that it will be an interesting ride.

Let’s see how I do anyway. I have to start tomorrow morning. ARGH! Wish me luck Smile

Lil xoxo


How to know….

Howdy there everyone,

I have thought about doing this post all week but I thought I would put it off and to see what happens but so far, nothing.

See, I like a couple of guys but I don’t know whether they like me back. One of my friends has been trying to gather intel as to what they think of me but so far, I have nothing. I have tried everything. I don’t know what to do or what even to look for. I don’t want to ask them straight out because if they don’t like me at all that could make things a bit awkward. And yes, I see them everyday (mostly).

So what I want to know is, what do I look for?

And yeah, I have tried researching it and no, I have no clear idea of what to look for.

Please help me….

Lil xoxo

My Tattoo and it’s meaning….

Howdy there everyone,

I thought that I would take this time to talk about something close to my heart and that’s my tattoo. When people first meet me they always ask me about my tattoo which is the Jeff Hardy/WWE symbol.

I got it a couple of years ago for my birthday (my birthday present to me Smile ) because for two years I had wanted it and I had the money available so I thought why not! And I have to say, I don’t regret it at all. It stands for something that even to this day I believe.

You see, Jeff Hardy, the wrestler, started to train as a wrestler as a young kid. Him and his older brother Matt Hardy built a homemade wrestling ring in their backyard and tried to replicate the moves that they saw their favourite wrestlers doing on TV. They got a little promotion started up, started video taping their matches and sending that round to the video stores round the area. They did little shows at fairs and what not until they were discovered by good old Jim Ross from the WWE. The rest is history.

Basically, the tattoo means that if you work hard and you believe that you will get there, you can do anything and be anything you want to be. Which is a good something to mean Smile

The other thing to me is that Jeff Hardy epitomizes the very style of wrestling that I enjoy. Fast paced, exciting, dare devil. All those sorts of matches. I guess in a way, he kind of epitomizes the X-Division from TNA which is my fav division. It used to have this moniker of “It’s not about weight limits, it’s about no limits” and that’s my fav style of wrestling.

I can tell you that I am happy to have this tattoo and the stuff that it means to me is more then most people realize. I don’t think I need to explain it to anyone anymore then I already have so I will just leave it there Smile

Have fun and take care everyone.

Lil xoxo

Being Social……

Howdy there everyone,

Sorry it has been so long in writing/updating this blog. I have lost my trains of thoughts in the last month and there are some things that have happened that have made me feel a little bit down and out.

One of these things occurred again today and so I thought that I would post on here and see if anyone else had this issue.

My mother has been telling me that I have to find an activity to do in my spare time that doesn’t involve me sitting at my computer and wrestling. I should point out to her my post here on wrestling but I am not very confident in that regard (I hate speaking up in situations like this). This is stemming from the fact that other then work, I spend majority of my time either at home doing housework or sitting on the computer checking wrestling, social media and so on.

Now, I get that. I can see that being an issue for her because she wants to see me enjoying life and not sitting around wasting it but the truth of the matter is, there is nothing I like more then sitting down and catching up on the wrestling. Catching up on what the wrestling world has to offer and seeing other people’s opinions on certain aspects of that world. Wrestling to me is an escape and it is a sport that I can sink my teeth into. It provides me with endless hours of joy and happiness when at times, in reality, I have been down and down in a spiral of out-of-control circumstances. I see nothing wrong with it but I do see where my mother is coming from. Even on nice days (like today for example) I sit at my computer. Check the wrestling. Nothing better then that I must say but still.

And the other thing that I think she has a problem with is she doesn’t think that I have any friends and that I don’t go out with “said friends”. This part does annoy me because I work full time in a supermarket that deals with hundreds of people daily. I do talk to people every day and on my days off I like the idea of chilling back and doing nothing.
I, contrary to popular belief, am actually quite social. I have friends who are actually my colleagues and I do talk to them. It actually makes my day go quicker. They make my day and some of them have actually been there for me earlier this year during one of the ‘down and out’ moments in my life.
You couple that with the fact that I am constantly texting some of my friends that live on the mainland, yeah, I think I am a sociable person. I feel as though I have enough contact with my friends and family that I can warrant being on the computer. Which, ironically, I also use as a contact device for my friends and family (Facebook is fantastic at this as if Twitter, my two fav social media sites Smile ). So I don’t know. I don’t know how to bring this up verbally (I don’t do well under that sort of pressure) so I thought that I would write it on here and see what happens from there.

Anyway, if you guys have anything to say or any ideas, post them in the comment section. I am always happy to hear from everyone.

Have fun and take care.
Lil Smile