As I sit here watching my daughter choke my partner out on the floor in their version of wrestling, it’s made me think of my life and where I want to be and what I want to do to get there. I have been reading my cousins blog (I will post the link at the end, worth reading….) and since reading it, it has me questioning things that I do in everyday life and decisions that I have made leading up to this point.
An example of this is she posted a post on Valentines day explaining about how it would be her first V-Day alone for near 20 years and how she is happy now to be single and it got me thinking about my life right now.
I remember Valentines day when I was single and I used to hate it. I love the idea of Valentines Day and having that one day that is specifically designed for love. I love love and I feel like I have alot of it to give. My current partner atm doesn’t believe in Valentines day and so doesn’t like to celebrate it. Which is unfortunate because, as I said, I do. Does cause a bit of tension but we soon get over that. Like we do most things.
My life at this point in time, is not really where I had “so called” planned it. I wanted to be married and with 2 kids by this point in my life. In fact they would of been 5/4 respectively. I thought that at 24 I would have been in a stable relationship and that would lead to marriage and kids and what not but it was not meant to be. But, I am happy with where my life is right now. I have an amazing daughter who I pour all my love into (as I say this I look over and she has pulled the antenna cord out for the 100th time today), and my partner and I are still in love nearly 4 years together. Yes, we have had our ups and downs many times over but we still love each other as much as the day we started dating. I would’ve said the day we met but that was at work and he was with his previous partner at the time so it was while before I got to be with him.
Funny how life is isn’t it?
I am going to studying this year via University. I haven’t been to Uni since 2007 so yeah, I’m a little daunted but I’m going to be doing a course which I hope will peak my interest alot more then what my previous one did, (I failed the semester the first time around because I didn’t attend class and I just wasn’t interested.) So I’m hoping to do better. It’s taken me this long to get here so I’m going to give it my all and hope for the best.
So while 2017 is off to a rather good start, I’m hoping I can continue to grow and hope that life can continue to grow upwards and outwards.
Have a lovely day.
Link to my cousins writing: https://medium.com/@beccafreo