Monthly Archives: March 2017

Well, that settles it…

Well, that settles it…we have to move now. 42 days as of today to find a place, apply, get it/or not, pack and move. This is going to be one of the most stressful things in my life I think.

My partner and I currently live in a house that we started renting 2 years ago. It’s the first home that I had actually lived in with a boyfriend. It was a humongous step for me. I’m a mummy’s/family’s girl through and through and so not living with them was a huge step.

For my partner, not so much.
He had already lived most of his teenage and adult life outside of his family home with a former partner so he knew what it was like already.

This has been a subject of conversation throughout our tenure here because I tend to see my family alot and my partner doesn’t seem to grasp it. He’s not as close with his family as I am with mine and so there is a bit of difference of opinion in regards to how much time should be spent with family. I love my family and we became closer when my Nan passed away a few years ago and so for me, family is everything. That made me want to be closer to my family and that’s something he just doesn’t get.

How do you all go about the difference? Please comment and let me know how you deal with these sorts of issues….

xoxo

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The Joys of Car Riding solo….

The joys of driving around with just myself and my sleeping 14 month old is that I get to think. And think. And think. And today I thought about a few things.

I thought about emailing Maggie Dent, a lady who I saw speak at the Building Brighter, Stronger Families conference recently. I want to ask all these questions about how to raise my 14 month old with two different families with two very different sets of values. I want to tell her that she made me realize FINALLY that although I may be an over-protective parent, I’m actually doing OK. I want to tell her that she made me want to be a better parent for my daughter. That I realize she is going to fall and scrape her knee and that’s OK. It happens. You dust it off. Kiss it better (magic kiss) and send them on their way. When they cry, you comfort. So simple but it took her telling us this to actually make me finally go ‘OK’ and be comfortable in doing what I do, and that’s being a mum.

I thought about a letter I wrote to an author (for the life of me can’t remember the author or the book I read. Would like to remember though and I can’t find the letter. I think I may have thrown it out a couple of years ago when I moved out), and I thought about the contents of that letter. I remember it being about two things…1). My family were fighting in amongst themselves and I was finding it very hard to deal with. It wasn’t a pleasent experience for anyone and 2). I was thinking about having sex for the first time with my first boyfriend and rightfully so, I was nervous. I didn’t know what to do and since I wasn’t comfortable talking about it with anyone close to me, I asked a stranger. An author of a book about girls that I’d read about it. I remember the letter saying that if I didn’t want to do it, no one could force me to and it was OK to say no. I didn’t know if I was ready and needed guidance. I was glad that I recieved a response and I still wish I could remember the authors name so I could write and tell her about all my experiences since then.

I thought about my life and where it’s headed and what I want to achieve now I’m officially a year older. What I want to do and what I want to see happen. I thought about what to do to get to where I need to be. Where do I see myself this time next year? Honestly have not a clue but I know what I want and I need to talk to a certain someone to see where he stands on certain things.

All this and more is what I have had time to think about in the car.

Inner workings of my mind.

xoxo

Well that’s it….

Well, that settles it….defiantly not pregnant….. just a cunning ploy to tell me that something was on its way…..oh well….. that was not much fun….. 

on a brighter note, I have decided to talk to my partner about the possibility of having another baby. I’m unfortunately/fortunately a bit clucky after one of my co workers announced she’s expecting and then I saw one of the others 6!week old yesterday and that was it 🍼 I got baby fever……. I’m in for a bit of mischief I think…..

I’ll let you all know how that goes……

Have fun xoxo 

Need some answers…..now…..

Well, today was certainly very interesting……

I wanted to cry, I was tired, I was cranky, I was angry and I had a bad back which only got worse due to my stacking of bags today.

WTH is wrong with me!

I cannot put up with this anymore. I have been overly cranky for the last couple of days, my back has been on/off sore all week (just the lower part) and I have been tired as well.

Wish this would all go away or that I had some answers….that would be handy…… I have two at the moment….PMS or pregnancy and since I have taken 2 tests in the last week and both have said negative, I would say that leaves PMS….which can kindly do its thing so I can go back to being normal….am not enjoying this at all………

If anyone out there is a doctor or knows someone who might know, please let me know……

And yes, I have googled……all too confusing…..l

Xoxox

I miss it

I was on Facebook last night and happened to come across a video of one of my co-workers announcing that they are pregnant and you know what, I miss it. I would like another baby and since someone else found out that they were pregnant I’ve had the bug. I’m clucky and want to add to my clan.

I loved being pregnant and all that came along with it. It was weird because when I was pregnant and the bigger I got, the more happier I was with my body. It made me feel so secure and yeah, I did get big (that’s what an 11pound baby will do to you lol) and I may not be happy now with my body but I loved it. I loved everything about it. Mind you, I did have a relatively problem free pregnancy compared to other people I know.

I have spoken with my partner before about having another child and I get one of 2 answers….
a). doesn’t want another one or
b). wants to wait until our current daughter is two

I hate sounding like a nag but I would like to try sooner rather then later but I know he’s not overly keen on the idea which is frustrating. I thought we were on the same page but between me getting cluckier with every other person announcing their pregnancy and him not getting the bug I’m very confused.

What to do????????

I’ll guess we shall have to have ‘the talk’ again…..

xoxo

Need some help badly….

Hi there everyone,

As you know, I have been have written a couple of posts about how I have been feeling lately.

In my posts Feeling Weird…. and Still Off I have talked about my feelings and that I thought I may be pregnant. Well, I took three tests last week and all 3 said negative. Trouble is, I still feel like crap. I am tired all the time and I am becoming more and more irritable at people and small things set me off. I’m thinking I may need to retest but I want your guys opinions.

I also have an app on my iPad called ‘Ladytimer‘ and it says that my ‘aunt mo’ should’ve been last week…..nothing has happened.

I don’t know what to do. I was irregular before I had my daughter and since it has just come back January this year I don’t know whether just to leave it or retest or doctors. I need your guys help. This is driving me mental.

Anyway, hope you are all well.

xoxo

Building Brighter, Stronger Families conference

Today I attended, with my mum, a conference. It was called the a building Brighter, Stronger Families conference. It had two guest speakers in Mem fox and Maggie Dent. Both of these women are very big advocates for teaching children from birth to at least five how to read and other essential life skills that would be useful later in life. Tickets weren’t cheap but to me, well worth it. I lived it. I didn’t know what to expect as I had never heard of Maggie Dent until I booked ,y ticket and I knew a little about Mem Fox through a Facebook page I follow. That’s it really. So I went into it with an open mind and I was quite pleasently surprised. I learnt a lot about parenting that I didn’t know before and made me feel a bit more confident about my parenting journey so far. I did particularly enjoy Maggie common sense approach to parenting and found that I was questioning certain aspects of parenting that I do myself and what I can do better.

Don’t get me wrong, Mem was fantastic and I am more encouraged then ever to read to my daughter and in fact I even brought one of her books, I’m Australian Too, for both my 14 month old and my 37 year old partner to teach the both about diversity in Australia.

Maggie Dent and her common sense approach really resonated it’s me because I am possibly like many mums and I doubt myself 90% of the time in regards to how I raise my daughter and get very confused about what is right and wrong in regards to her. I also learnt that, even that I am an over protective mother, I need to take a step back and let her get bumps and bruises to help her develop. I need to let her experience a lot more. I am also one of those people who is addicted to technology and so after today have realised that I am modelling that to my daughter and I don’t want her to be like this. I want her to experience the world for real, not via the to shows (although she will sit with me and watch the tv network with me…)

All in all, I loved the conference. I do wish it wasn’t so pricey as I think more people would have attended and therefore benefited from the information that was presented to us, so maybe next year that could be something to look at…..

But all in all, awesome and I am so glad that I went.

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P.s. The catering was awesome too 🙂 love when places actually put effort into catering as well 😁