Monthly Archives: June 2018

On my way….

Well, I did my weekly weigh in this morning and man, am I stoked! It may only be a small but I feel so proud.
I lost 1.2kg and 3.8cm off my body this week! I was hoping for this kind of loss this week so I’m so glad that we are going in the right direction…
But, what really got me was when I did a month overview (technically it was 5 weeks but close enough I think….), and it showed that over that 5 week period starting 20th May this year, I have lost 3.4kg and….wait for it…..24.9cm off my body!
I don’t know where from so I think from now on I may need to do progress shots but I’m so proud of myself. That is the kind of numbers that I want to see happening and seeing them, shows me that what I’m doing is the right thing.

Now, to get my a** to the gym and really work it out and keep doing my health eating (Thank you Healthy Mummy!!!!)

That’s made my day…… xoxo

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Getting organized…

Today I have decided that I need to make a timetable of my days for a two week period.

The reason being is that I have been to the gym ONCE this week on my own and when I asked my partner this morning if he could watch our daughter while I went he said that there wasn’t enough time between me going/coming home from the gym, HIM HAVING A NAP, and then him heading off to work. This infuriated me as I have been planning on going to the gym today and so to not go is annoying as anything.
So, I have found a timetable which I loved (Timetable Design here) and roughly worked out what my days consisted of and how I could work around it. So, I did one in pencil, then printed out another one and did it in texta and put certain colors for certain activities. I have even labeled the colors off to the sides so we can see what activity is when.

Now, I feel more organized and since I have had a phone saying that my daughters swimming tomorrow has been cancelled, guess what I’ll be doing???? I can’t wait to be more organized.

Wish me luck….

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My completed 2 week timetable. Even sleep has been thought of…..

First session completed..

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Well, I’m excited! My first ever personal training session is done and dusted.
Today it was only half hour and that was just showing me the correct way to do the exercises and the weights and heights of stuff and so on but I loved it all the same.

Basically, earlier this week (Tuesday) I went in and saw a lady who spoke to me about what would happen. We talked about all my issues (a lot of them…) and how we could work through them without injuring me further.
We spoke about my job and how my physical being wasn’t keeping up with the expectations I have of it and how it’s affecting my job majorly.
We talked about my miscarriage and how it may have affected my body and my mental health.
We spoke about roughly what would happen this week between her and the trainer in regards to working out a program specially designed for me. Which I like the idea of because when I look into a gym, I have no idea about what to do and where to start so this was nice to hear.

Then today I went in and the dude was great. He looked at my file and said that I have ‘a lot of issues’ (which is true when I sat down and thought about it…..), so we have a lot of work to do. But, he walked me through and helped work out the exercises so that I could do them and I have a rough understanding of how they work and what order to do them in and how to do them properly.
And honestly, I loved it. I want to do this. For me. For my health. For my mental health. Just for me.
I did get a bit stumped when he said that for this to really work and get results that I would need to come at least 3 times a week which I was thinking “How can I do that?” but then I got to the car and I thought, I’ll make it work. I’ll have to schedule time to do it in but I am confident in getting it done. I honestly want this to help me. And now, having someone guide me in the right direction feels better. I feel more confident now then just going in there and being like “Where do I start?”

I like where this is going and I cannot wait to move forward on this journey…. and tell you guys all about the process while I’m on it….

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Me repping #TeamHealthyMummy on my first ever gym session. Nervous face but excited at the same time.

Concentrate on me…

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I’ve made a decision.

I’m going to take some time and concentrate on me.

I’ve decided that physically I need to fix myself.
So last Thursday I joined a gym. No big deal to some but to me, it was something that I really needed to think about. I’ve joined a gym before but that was because my friend went there and so I thought I would too. It wasn’t for me though.
This time it it.
I returned to work a couple of weeks ago and while I may only work 3 days a week, there really are quite challenging. I stack shelves at a supermarket and it is quite physically demanding and I’ve found that since returning, my body just isn’t the same. I can only lift lighter objects and pulling and twisting is just too painful at the moment.
So, I have some goals that I want to achieve (as I have talked about in Getting my fitness ideas on.. ).
I’m not just gym-ing either. I’m back onto my Healthy Mummy shakes as well. Healthy eating and drinking better (more water, less fizzy/cordial) and making better overall choices.

With these physical changes, I’ve found that I need to work on me mental health as well. It has taken a battering these last few months so I want to concentrate on getting that back on track as well.
One starting point is that I have enrolled my daughter into childcare one day a week so that she can work on her social and language development and I get some ‘me’ time This has been a cause for debate between my partner and I. Personally, I believe that she will benefit from it greatly. As for me, it will be my time to do me. Do the things I want/ need to do. Housework, go out and get my eyebrows done etc.
Last week, I took the time to go to the Tasmanian Arboretum and I loved it. I was able to focus on my photography (a hobby of mine since before I got with my partner), and I felt so much better afterwards. I felt so much more relaxed, more so then I have for a long time.
I’ve also decided that to turn off all my electronics for most of the day as I found that when I was using them and being distracted by my daughter, for example, I was getting angry, and that was something that I didn’t want.
So, I’m making more ‘down time’ where electronics are off/left alone and I do something else, like I go outside for an hour or so, write a blog post with pen and paper. Just something else.

It’s also best for my daughter as well.
Because that’s what she deserves.
Me.
The best of me.

So that’s the plan.

Hopefully, all goes well, things will start looking up. For me. For my daughter. For everyone

 

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The last rose on our rose bush in the backyard.

 

I just want to feel…

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Me, the night after my D&C (Dilation and Curettage), looking very tired. And I was.

I just want to feel normal again. If that’s even possible.

I want to not have my heart sink when I hear someone saw “Ultrasound…”
Happened at work last night. I walked out of the toilets to go to start work and someone was talking and the only word I heard was that. My heart sank, I could feel the emotion build up….not a great start to my shift.

I want to be able to talk to people about my pregnancy, but wait, I’m not pregnant anymore.
Someone asked me last night how the bubba in my tummy was going and I said, quite sadly, that I wasn’t pregnant and that I’d had surgery to remove it.

So, when can this sadness go? When can I feel normal again?

I’m taking it one day at a time, but there are times where I just want to hide in my bed and cry. But that’s OK, because it’s part of the process.

Maybe one day I’ll get there. Just not right now…..