I was sitting in the tea room at work on Monday. For my break. I was sitting there with the team minding my own business and then these two ladies started talking about pregnancy, miscarriages and abortions.
Now, I had been a little upset recently (as I explained in my previous post) about my miscarriage and subsequent events that followed.
So sitting there listening to this conversation was really quite difficult. I was really struggling to keep it together and I did feel at one point about getting up and walking out. But I didn’t. Instead I sat there and tried as hard as I could not to listen. It was hard and something that I know I need to deal with but I really did think that I was over it. I really did think that I had moved on from it.
And when I went back to work, I was down an aisle by myself and so my mind went into thinking mode which made me want to cry even more.
I thought about asking to go home. But I didn’t.
Because I know that I have some ways to go.
I know that I need to deal with this head on and face my fears of people talking about it. Some days it really is just hard…..