Yesterday was a bad day..

Yesterday, I just had one of those days. I think it was a culmination of things but just before I went to work, all I wanted to do was sink down and cry. Things just got to me. I am currently 23 weeks pregnant and I am defiantly showing….alot! I know that I am having…

I see it!

I went for my scan yesterday. I was so nervous going in as I have had bad experiences with second scans before (learning of my miscarriages…) but yesterday, I had tears of joy as I saw little bub and my heart has never felt so full. Baby Button (as my mum has called it) is…

It’s official

  Today I am officially 12 weeks! Officially ending my first trimester! I’m not telling people on Facebook or even in person until I have my scan next week. I have decided to have the scan as part of the testing for down syndrome. Any excuse for me to have an ultrasound and see (as…

Emotional roller-coaster

I realized something yesterday while I was at work. It takes something so small to make me want to cry. I have noticed it before and made mention of it on one of my posts, Just had a moment, where my partner sent me an apology and it made me want to cry. And I’ve…

Just had a moment

Oh my golly gosh! I just had a moment! I was texting my partner just now as I’m at home and he’s at work. My daughter and I had just been to the supermarket to get some stuff and we had seen him. He’s been a bit not himself this week. And his text message…

Do I really look it?

I was out with my partner and daughter today down the supermarket and we ran into someone who my partner knows. Now, she was immediately attracted to telling us how our daughter has grown (turned 3 on Friday last week and has grown up immensely) since the last time she saw her. Then the conversation…

Time for reflection

As 2018 comes to a close, I have decided to reflect on what a year I have had. I’ve hit rock bottom more times then I can count. My relationship has hit some of it’s lowest points. We have had 2 miscarriages within the space of 7 months, one of those required me to have…

Whats been happening…

Well, sorry I haven’t been as post-y as I probably should be. As I said in my previous post, Secret news on the downlow… , my partner and I are expecting (hopefully…) bub number 2 in the new year (End of July to be precise but anyhow…). Since that post I have seen the doctor…

This week…

This past week has been nothing short of s*** and a blur. I don’t know what to think. I don’t know what to feel. And I feel out of sorts. For those wondering, please read back to my previous post Not the news I wanted… and that pretty much explains it. I have been trying…

Hospital visits are not fun

And I’ve had two over the weekend. As my last post says, my partner and I are having baby #2, due May next year. I am so excited. After my miscarriage earlier this year, this has come both as a huge shock and also a quite pleasant surprise. In saying that though, I have been…