Yesterday was a bad day..

Yesterday, I just had one of those days. I think it was a culmination of things but just before I went to work, all I wanted to do was sink down and cry. Things just got to me. I am currently 23 weeks pregnant and I am defiantly showing….alot! I know that I am having…

Just a phone call

I just had a phone call from work. I was kind of expecting them to ask if I wanted to have today off. No, it was if I wanted to work tomorrow. I said I couldn’t. When I mentioned it to my partner who was standing in the room with me, he said I should’ve…

Emotional roller-coaster

I realized something yesterday while I was at work. It takes something so small to make me want to cry. I have noticed it before and made mention of it on one of my posts, Just had a moment, where my partner sent me an apology and it made me want to cry. And I’ve…

Whats been happening…

Well, sorry I haven’t been as post-y as I probably should be. As I said in my previous post, Secret news on the downlow… , my partner and I are expecting (hopefully…) bub number 2 in the new year (End of July to be precise but anyhow…). Since that post I have seen the doctor…

Not the news I wanted…

Well, unfortunately Monday was a bad day. In fact it was a really bad day. As I mentioned in my post Nervous wait… I had an ultrasound booked as I had been bleeding for a week with no real reason. Well, that reason was made apparent at the ultrasound. I have lost our baby again…….

Tea Room Chatter….

I was sitting in the tea room at work on Monday. For my break. I was sitting there with the team minding my own business and then these two ladies started talking about pregnancy, miscarriages and abortions. Now, I had been a little upset recently (as I explained in my previous post) about my miscarriage…

Getting organized…

Today I have decided that I need to make a timetable of my days for a two week period. The reason being is that I have been to the gym ONCE this week on my own and when I asked my partner this morning if he could watch our daughter while I went he said…

I just want to feel…

I just want to feel normal again. If that’s even possible. I want to not have my heart sink when I hear someone saw “Ultrasound…” Happened at work last night. I walked out of the toilets to go to start work and someone was talking and the only word I heard was that. My heart…

10 years..

Last Friday I celebrated 10 years working at my workplace. 10 years! I can’t believe that! I started there when I was 20 years old. I had a boyfriend who broke up with me not long after I started. When I started the whole shop was different. Different layout. Things in different aisles. Different people….

Trying to get back to it..

I went back to work last night. I had been off for about 3 weeks following the news of my little angel passing at 7 weeks into my pregnancy. It was hard. There was a lot that I couldn’t do and some things I did do that I know now that I shouldn’t have done….