Being Social……

Howdy there everyone,

Sorry it has been so long in writing/updating this blog. I have lost my trains of thoughts in the last month and there are some things that have happened that have made me feel a little bit down and out.

One of these things occurred again today and so I thought that I would post on here and see if anyone else had this issue.

My mother has been telling me that I have to find an activity to do in my spare time that doesn’t involve me sitting at my computer and wrestling. I should point out to her my post here on wrestling but I am not very confident in that regard (I hate speaking up in situations like this). This is stemming from the fact that other then work, I spend majority of my time either at home doing housework or sitting on the computer checking wrestling, social media and so on.

Now, I get that. I can see that being an issue for her because she wants to see me enjoying life and not sitting around wasting it but the truth of the matter is, there is nothing I like more then sitting down and catching up on the wrestling. Catching up on what the wrestling world has to offer and seeing other people’s opinions on certain aspects of that world. Wrestling to me is an escape and it is a sport that I can sink my teeth into. It provides me with endless hours of joy and happiness when at times, in reality, I have been down and down in a spiral of out-of-control circumstances. I see nothing wrong with it but I do see where my mother is coming from. Even on nice days (like today for example) I sit at my computer. Check the wrestling. Nothing better then that I must say but still.

And the other thing that I think she has a problem with is she doesn’t think that I have any friends and that I don’t go out with “said friends”. This part does annoy me because I work full time in a supermarket that deals with hundreds of people daily. I do talk to people every day and on my days off I like the idea of chilling back and doing nothing.
I, contrary to popular belief, am actually quite social. I have friends who are actually my colleagues and I do talk to them. It actually makes my day go quicker. They make my day and some of them have actually been there for me earlier this year during one of the ‘down and out’ moments in my life.
You couple that with the fact that I am constantly texting some of my friends that live on the mainland, yeah, I think I am a sociable person. I feel as though I have enough contact with my friends and family that I can warrant being on the computer. Which, ironically, I also use as a contact device for my friends and family (Facebook is fantastic at this as if Twitter, my two fav social media sites Smile ). So I don’t know. I don’t know how to bring this up verbally (I don’t do well under that sort of pressure) so I thought that I would write it on here and see what happens from there.

Anyway, if you guys have anything to say or any ideas, post them in the comment section. I am always happy to hear from everyone.

Have fun and take care.
Lil Smile

My love for Wrestling :)

Howdy there everyone,

I thought I would take this time to talk to you about my real one true love….Wrestling! I know, possibly not what some of you were expecting but still…..

I was first introduced to this thing called wrestling back in 2007 by my then boyfriend. We stayed up all night and it came on one of the channels and I was hooked. I remember one of the matches being The Miz vs. Scotty 2 Hotty feat. The Boogeyman. It was a new thing for me and I had never seen anything like it. I was hooked from the get go. When I wasn’t working or with my bf (we split 2 years later) I was checking out the wrestling. It was just something that I could get my teeth into so to speak. And I have been hooked ever since.

Now, the reason that I thought I would share this with you is because wrestling has been quite an emotional thing for me. Not only is it my favourite sport, but it has helped me overcome some of life’s greatest challenges, like death.

I had a quite close family member pass away earlier this year and while I was being pressured to continue life as normal, all I wanted to do was crawl under a rock and stay there. Fortunately for me, wrestling helped. When I needed to escape the world I would either watch the wrestling on my phone or I would put in a DVD and watch that. It would help dull out the pain because I could be transported to another world where everything was good (even when my favourites were losing). It has helped me and I am very grateful for it for that reason.

Some people…actually, almost everybody I know says that I am obsessed with wrestling. I actually have a blog called Wrestling Gossip, My Way where I post my thoughts and feelings about all things wrestling related. I read alot of gossip sites about wrestling and normally it’s just my take on the stories that interest me. And also it’s where I put my picks on who I think will win on PPV’s. I started this blog back in 2007/2008 and I have been surprisingly keeping up with it since then. I do go on and off it at times but it honestly is a place where I can post my feelings about any wrestling topic and if anyone wants to read it and share their opinions than they are more then welcome to Smile

One of my fond memories of wrestling is from back in 2009 when I went so see the RAW Live tour that was going round Australia. I went and saw it in Adelaide and I have to say, I have never felt so comfortable being by myself in a group of strangers than that night. I got to see the Miz, Randy Orton, Triple H, Carlito…..It was awesome. I couldn’t wipe the smile from my face and even thinking about it now, I have that same smile. It just made me so happy to be somewhere and to be truly happy. My only regret is that I didn’t take my camera. Oh well, maybe, if there is, next time………

One of my favourite things about wrestling is the different stipulations and different kinds of matches. I’m not so much a normal match girl but I like stipulations and different elements to the matches. One of my favourite matches comes from the 2005 PPV, December to Dismember. It was an all ECW PPV and I loved it. The main event match was an EXTREME ELIMINATION CHAMBER MATCH! It was epically awesome. If you want to know what it is, look it up. But I loved it purely and simply because it was fast paced, entertaining and had weapons! A table, a steel chair, a barbed wire baseball bat and a crowbar. All made for one very interesting fight I have to say. That has to be one of my favourite matches of all time and I don’t understand how people can’t like it.
Another one of my favourites was at the 2008 PPV ‘Armageddon’ where defending WWE Champion Edge faced off against Triple H and Jeff Hardy (my fav wrestlers of all time). Jeff Hardy eventually won the bout and it was a momentous occasion because it was the first WWE Championship that Jeff had ever won. He had come so close on numerous occasions but never won when it counted. Even now, I still give exactly the same reaction of pure joy when I watch that match.

Well, it appears that I have spoken for too long. I think it may now be time for bed.
Until next time, have fun and take care.
Lil xoxo

Week 1 Update

Howdy there everyone,

As I have said in one of my previous posts My Skin I am trying the Proactive solution system to see how it works. I did post pics from before and then 4 days after and I forgot on Friday to post but I have the official week 1 photos.

Me for blog

Me for blog week 1

The top picture is from before Proactiv and this bottom one is for the end of week 1. Personally I think that there is a bit of difference but I guess we shall continue to see. It’s about half way into week 2 at the moment so I’m hoping this continues to work.

Anyway, just thought I’d update you on all of this.

Have fun.

Lil xoxo

A childhood bullying incident.

Howdy there everyone,

I thought I would post today on a subject that I know is a big deal and that is bullying. More specifically a incident that happened when I was a child/teenager. The reason for this is I was thinking yesterday (as I was working) about an incident that happened when I first started work and it has stuck in my mind ever since.

My story is that I was walking into work one day (I walk to work everyday). I entered the shop and removed my headphones from my ears. As I was doing this I looked up and spotted this young person in what was the lolly aisle. As I approached this person they looked at me and a look of what seemed to be fear rushed over them. As I got closer they turned to me and said, “Please don’t bash me.”
“What?” was my initial response. I didn’t know what to think. And then I remembered. This person had bullied me when I was younger.
You see, when I was younger, I used to attend holiday care at the local day care centre. They had organized one day that they would take us on a trip to Beaconsfield Gold Mine. On the bus trip there I was sitting in one of the bus seats and this person, younger then me, started to tease me about the way I looked. My skin, my nose, anything that they thought would get a reaction out of me. Of course, I started to cry because what they said hurt. It was horrible. I don’t remember exactly what they said but I know my skin was a big thing at the time. And so someone sitting in front of me told one of the carers on the bus and they moved the person away to another seat and sat with me.
The experience itself was horrible. As a child moving into the teenage years, things like that can have a horrible affect on your life. I was never really a confident person and I wouldn’t stick up for myself either so I would just bow my head and withdraw myself. As the years have gone on I have learned to move myself away from situations like that and I don’t react violently towards others but this was just one of my many bullying experiences.

What I have learned throughout the years with bullying is that you just have to walk away. If you are at school or work and bullying occurs, tell a teacher or someone who would be able to help out. That is the best advice I can give. Don’t start to react aggressively towards others because at the end of the day, it just makes you more like them. From my experience anyway Smile

My skin

Howdy there everyone,

I figured I better start with the reason that I started this blog and that would be my skin.
As I said in the ‘Skin’ page, I have tried many, many things with my skin to make it better and to clear it up. I have tried pills, beauty treatments, everything. I am currently trialling something at the moment but we will get to that in due course.

I have struggled with acne my whole adolescent life. I got it really bad in primary school and it has not left me since. I have done everything to try and get rid of it.
I have tried most of the cleansers that you find on the shelves. I have had many facials that say that they “help” with the acne. And I have also been to a dermatologist who trialled me on some pills.
Now the first one that I tried was Roaccutane. This pill does have some very serious side effects but it also does help the skin. My main reason for stopping the use of it was because a). my lips got really, really dry and would bleed and be sore and b). I would always forget to take the pills. Which doesn’t really help the whole treatment.
While it may have a very bad rep in the press, I will say that I think with continued use it could’ve cleared up my skin. But alas, it did not. So I was put onto another pill. Diane 35. Now, this is also a form of birth control which at the time was not what I wanted to use it for (I was in high school at the time, just getting over the lip-affect of Roaccutane) and while it did clear my skin for a little while, it had the same problem that the Roaccutane did, I always forgot to take it (as you can probably guess by now, I am not a pill taker at all!).

So I then tried all these different creams and cleansers and moisturisers that you can purchase on the shelves at your local supermarket. I tried a facial cleansing system from a health shop and it did nothing. So I thought “That’s it. I’m gonna be like this for the rest of my life.” That’s the mentality that was going through my head.

Then, I sat down one day and what should happen to come on the TV but the Proactive infomercial. I had always been intrigued when I had seen it because I had always loved the results that I would see and would think “I wish I could be one of them. One of the real success stories.” And so, in January I ordered some Proactive online. And while I admit that it worked for a little while, I ran out of product and while waiting for my next shipment, also went through some personal issues family-wise. But, as I have said, this is the new, accountable me. So I emailed the Proactive people and I have now received a new shipment of Proactive which I have been sticking to for the last 4 days and I think it has made a difference. Here are the day that I started using it photos and the 4 days later photos…..

My "before" pictures, taken 5/4/2013

Day 4 Proactiv Use

So, while it is still early days yet, I am hoping that this is my saving grace. And by talking about it on here I am promising to myself (specifically) that I am going to follow this through and hopefully come out the other side better.

Anyway, hope you guys have a good day Smile

Lil xoxo

First Post for the year

Howdy there everyone,

Hope this catches you all well and good. As you can see from the title, this is my place to kind of make myself accountable for different areas of my life. Starting now, if I find some information that helps me towards becoming a better person, I will post it up here. No matter what it is, if it helps me, it’s here.

I will divide what I find or what I write into different categories. Hopefully as simply as possible (I really do hate complicated stuff!).

Anyway, this was just a brief “Hello and welcome.” so that I could have something up.

Have fun and I will write again soon.

Lil xoxo